The Numbers Just Don’t Add up – I’m Gaining it All Back

I am no longer fooled. Weight loss is more than a numbers game.

I’ve been to the doctor more times that I care to remember. I always get the same speech, “Ms. Boyce, You have to lose weight. Just eat less and exercise more. It’s easy.”

Yes, there is a basic truth that to lose weight one must eat less and exercise more. If those doctors were to spend a week in my shoes and they would see that my life is about more than numbers.

I joined a ‘mental – mastery challenge’, 30 days of acknowledging and evaluating my food triggers and my habits. These first few days have been tough. But I did realize this one truth, everything is not about will-power or self control. Some things that I do (and eat) are simply an outward expression of what is going on in my heart. I learned this week that eating and exercising is directly connected to nearly everything in my life.

Bad day at work – trip(s) to the snack cart to help with the stress

Good day at work – fruit and maybe a short walk

Pull-my-hair-out day at work – it’s a wrap. Anything goes

Phone call from that someone special – eat healthy, feel great

Don’t hear from that someone special – lose appetite, can’t eat (also not healthy)

High self-esteem day – salads, veggies and gym

Low self-esteem day – I don’t care about anything including my health

Tight money week – financial stress can take me to the extreme in either direction

Feeling anxious – drink as much coffee as I can take

Disappointed – chocolate and salt

Tired – whatever I can put my hands on

Go to bed and can’t sleep – get up and grab whatever

It has been a difficult week for me. But no worries, it’s just a pothole on the road to my destiny. I’m not going backward.

This week, I gained the opportunity to understand myself and to love myself even more. I’m gaining it all back.


Ayoka Boyce is a published author (aka Nikki P. Serene), blogger, writing coach and Mentor. She is the founder of All Write RVA, a not for profit organization that promotes writing and literacy.




2 thoughts on “The Numbers Just Don’t Add up – I’m Gaining it All Back

  1. That sums up a lot of truth. But keep pressing forward. You will start seeing a difference because of your consistency of working out. It may not make sense now but you are stirring up your metabolism. Love this!


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